Til Death or near death do us part

My husband and I are getting ready to celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary on Nov 16th 2011. The big 3. It feels like we've been married for 30years instead of just 3. This last year has aged us both, but I hear that having kids does that to you. In the last 3 years we have survived 2 miscarriages and the birth of our son and all that came with that. Our marriage has definitely taken some hits. To be perfectly honest there have been days when I didn't know whether or not we would make it. The stress of taking care of a child with medical and chromosomal issues almost seemed too much to handle. We were not equipped. Not to mention the hormonal super storm that was raging inside my body. Every time I went to see Sam in the CICU the poor nurse just handed me kleenex right off the bat.. I was crying all the time and not sleeping and not eating and making my husband the enemy. I remember getting in the shower and just sitting in there for 30 minutes and crying and feeling such disappointment, disappointment in myself,my husband, and God...and then I remembered a verse from Psalms 121:1 ( I lift my eyes unto the hills from whence cometh my help. My help comes from the Lord..the maker of heaven and earth...)  I would just say this over and over again...For any couple going through something like this I can't stress enough that communication is key!!!!! I would just hold stuff in and then explode all over my poor husband...I am learning over time to let him in along the way...to keep him up to speed on what I am feeling. He's my best friend and my soul mate. He is the one whom God chose for me and I have to remind myself of that on a daily basis. It is so important to have a solid foundation and to always remember that God is in control no matter what ...and that the calmest place during a storm is in the eye....And laugh as often as you can!!!!!