Like It Was Yesterday

I have to admit that I don't have the best memory. Never have, now my nephew, Cayden, he doesn't forget a thing...my poor sister, but me...I forget all the time. I think besides God's many other awesome attributes that he also has a wonderful since of humor which is why when it came to my pregnancy and Sam's birth I won't ever forget!!! I can remember like it was yesterday. This time last month I remember getting ready to go to work, big as a house , and miserable...and I have to say I was "that" chic....the angry pregnant woman and my co-workers bore the brunt of it!!!! If God had given me the ability to breath fire, there would be a lot less of my co-workers around today....anyhoo...I just remember it was about this time that the panic attacks started. I would wake up feeling like I was going to sufficate and telling George that we had to get this baby out now!!!! My poor husband...I was also going to the perinatologist every other week and the ob for a stress test. We were also getting the nursery ready and at night I would read to Sam and pray for him. I remembering asking God every night to make him into the man of God that he wants him to be and to heal his heart and please make him healthy and normal...of course I have since learned that "normal" is highly overrated and apparently subjective....who knew?? anyhoo...I couldn't wait until he got here. I was filled with excitement, nervousness, worry, ..I was scared and not sure what we were facing but here we are almost 1 year later.....God has been good to us that's not to say that I haven't yelled at God along the way,  and I haven't had the most faith, but it's all good...and in a little over a week we will be celebrating Sam's 1st birthday.....he's so awesome and I will never ever forget.....